There are those times in life when you feel like if you sit for a moment, and stop spinning the plates, everything will come down smashing around you. And, you’ll have to clean it up. You know it won’t, of course, that nagging voice that cautions you to slow down, but the momentum is building like a child’s science project. The volcano is about to erupt on cue.
That’s life lately. Life is moving fast and wonderfully. I shifted gears in a weird way, and did some things I said I would never, could never. But I can. I must. We all do things that surprise us once in a while, I guess.
Like riding a bus, I’m shifting side to side and swaying along a path that, no matter hard I try to define, is completely obstructed. Passengers block my view. So I trust. I brace myself. And when necessary I lean on supports.
It’s taking me on a journey, and you know I’m a fearless adventurer.
Buddhists encourage us to find harmony within without ground beneath our feet. I can’t say it comes naturally, but I’ve felt this peace, and I know it’s not out there, but rather, in here for me. And you.
So true. Thanks for sharing. I’ve felt this as I work in my “retirement” to work on some personal projects and build a small, personal business and find I’m creating more ideas of work and work itself than I’ll ever find the time. It’s what happens when you find something you love to do, and if any spinning plate stops and falls, you simply say, “Gee, I guess I missed that one.”
Kinda’ I wrote in a blog entry recently, “Put what’s important in front of you and put everything else somewhere else, preferably in dark places you’ll forget where they are until it’s necessary or becomes important.”
The balance is knowing which is important and which isn’t enough to keep going, and which to simply enjoy while your travelling on your journey.
Hi Jen,
When you comment about things spinning out of control it makes me think of the many times this past six months as we prepared for Be-All 2012. As many of you know, Be-All is the second largest Transgender Convention in the U.S. We concluded last Saturday with a wonderful dinner and fireworks show at the Esplanade Lakes in Downers Grove( IL). On Sunday morning as I was leaving I encountered a young trans woman (now in boy garb) whom I had invited to Be-All. I asked her how she enjoyed it and she seemed frozen; then she began to shake and cry. “I never want to go back to being a boy” she said. I held her for several minutes until she stopped crying. (I shed a few tears too.) This told me that all the work was worth it. I ache for the many girls out there that we have yet to help. Being Trans is not a fetish or a whim or a fantasy. It is who we are, It is in our heart and soul and to deny being who we really are causes unspeakable pain, more-so than physical pain which heals .Our healing only begins when we accept who we are; oft-times at great physical and emotional risk.
Thanks so much for the work that you do and the wonderful example that you set.
Love,
Katie
Thank YOU Katie! I’ve attended Be-All and there are so many wonderful people I met there. It’s a powerful event. Be proud that you are helping heal lives across our planet. Blessings, Jen