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Last night the kids and I watched Earth, a documentary about animals narrated by the bold, smooth, velvety voice of James Earl Jones. (Love him.) Ig you aren’t familiar with it, the movie followed a few groups of animals over the course of one year as they fight to survive in this world.
These breathtakingly beautiful images of our planet made my jaw drop. At first the kids balked when I chose this as our Friday Night Movie Night feature, but in the end they sat paralyzed (like me) jaw dropped open beholding the majesty. It was spectacular.
Before drifting to sleep the show kept creeping back into my consciousness, the images still so fresh in my mind. My thoughts kept returning on how the mother animals protected their young with such fierce determination. (I’m still trying to get over how the polar bear mothers don’t eat for five months, but still have the stamina to shepherd and teach her cubs. That’s love!)
Fortitude.
Or how the elephant mothers will leave the safety of their pack if their little ones can’t catch up with the rest. The selflessness. They will naturally sacrifice everything. Despite the dry sandstorms and impossible odds, she keeps leading her little one toward the hope of water.
Tenacity.
I loved how the adults would circle around the young ones when a predator approaches. It doesn’t matter that it isn’t their child. They will endure the predator’s attack, the possibility of injury, pain and death for that child. Like the child belonged to the pack as much as the child belonged to the mother. They’ll risk anything to preserve the young, their hope for the future.
Perseverance.
Sometimes I wish that our society was more like the animal kingdom. I wish we could simply revert back to our natural instincts of protecting all of our children. Why don’t we get it that all children are our only hope for the future? It is not only our responsibility, it is our duty as human beings.
When I was pregnant with Hope I had lots of medical issues that caused a significant amount of inescapable pain. I struggled for quite a while with it. I did my fair share of moaning and groaning. It was tough. Then I found my mantra- fortitude, tenacity, perseverance. Every time I started thinking of what was happening to me I would say this mantra over and over to remind myself that it wasn’t just me anymore. I had to lift myself beyond my ego, beyond my body and go higher. With each incantation I was becoming a mother.
Now after all these years, I go back to my mantra when I lose sight of what is important. This life is fleeting, minutes passing by like the breeze. Am I leading by example so that my kids have a clear roadmap for life? Am I caring for other children the same way as I would hope another would care for my own? When I take a step back I see how similar we all are and my heart fills with a sense of gratitude and pride that nourishes another day.
The main point inall you have written and observed is the fact that you care. Many parents lose sight of that and let their children down. Under the all encompassing umbrella of love there are many attributes to being a good parent but actually caring about your children and their welfare rates high amongst them. Caring involves taking the time to be involved with them, making sure they are protected and their needs are met. A caring parent ensures their children are not neglected but are well looked after and provided for. Without love none of this is possible. A child looks to it’s parent for love, guidance, direction, protection and all of it’s needs until the age is reached whereby they can take the responsibility onboard for themselves. If a parent hasn’t done a good job in their child’s upbringing it will be reflected in that child’s life as an adult. It is therefore necessary that we don’t let our children down whilst we still have an influence on them. There should be no subject that we shy away from, no problem that we fail to face for their sake. Accepting and then managing your child’s gender indentity issues is a fine example of parental love. If we are unable to provide all the answers ourselves we should not be slow in asking for help. Animals instinctively protect and we are really no different in that respect. The only difference is we can reason. You became a mother when your children were born but being a mother is more than just bearing children. For any new mother there is also a learning curve and she is jst as much a pupil as her offspring. The sudden realisation of the resposibility comes to light and it may seem a daunting prospect. You do your best and that is all you can do. When things are not going so well you’ll know about it soon enough. As a parent you know this and have experience. Yes, you can look back with some pride and say, ‘Yes, I have done things well’.
Love
Shirley Anne xxx
I love what you wrote Shirley Anne. All too often I think parents get caught up with what parenting looks like- the gear, the must-have photos taken in special increments, the right classes for the kids. The outside stuff. But more & more I think real life is made up of the day-to-day little things. The answers you give to a child when you are in the middle of something else. The response you give to an invitation to play on the floor. The tea parties, the Lego construction projects, the paintings- the little connections where lessons are shared without the lecture. There is so much love to be shared. I feel lucky to have these two little human beings in my life. Blessed to be their mother.
Thanks for sharing this. Much Love & Best Wishes- Jen
You ARE that nurturing animal/mother with a significantly greater challenge. I mean, some of those chimp mommies have the hardest time getting their little Trans-chimp kid into a pair of black, patent leather pumps, but generally the other simian parents just nod and smile.
You’re optimism really messes with my transexual angst. Either you are ONE IN SEVERAL MILLION…or my mom sucked. Maybe you should have named Hope Lucky! Naw, then the other little chimps would have really laid it on.
You are Awesome.
You got me laughing April Rose!!
Hi again adopted Mom,
I found this:
http://ai.eecs.umich.edu/people/conway/TS/Evelyn/Evelyn.html
on my cyber-travels at a very empowering web site for successful trans women:
http://ai.eecs.umich.edu/people/conway/TSsuccesses/TSsuccesses.html
and thought of you. The link looks funny as I see it on the page, but you can always copy and paste. It may be a bit outdated, or you may have seen it. I was just thinking of you and Hope.
Your adopted Orphan, April Rose
Thanks April Rose! I quickly checked out the link & it worked for me. So good to see stories being told! Best- Jen